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Hard times

Posted in health, retirement with tags on March 19, 2020 by jefferyrn

It is hard to think of anything except the pandemic.  I try to continue working and living my life as best I can, given the path we are currently on.  People are scared for the future.  The unknown is terrifying.   But what certainty is there after all?  Shit happens.

This is the second big blow to my future.  The first one came 15 years ago when the economy went to shit.  We had plans.  Rick was going to retire.  We were going to move.  We thought we had enough money in real estate that maybe I could retire with him.  Then you know what happened next.  

We lost money on the sale of our house in California.  Had we known what was going to happen we should have just walked away, but we thought we were doing the right thing?  I lost my job in the city.  I found one locally and we became renters.  After 2 years we decided it was time to move on.  I found a job in Reno and Rick retired.  We moved into a 2 bedroom condo and here we are today.

I have been with the hospital for 13 years.  Property values have started to go up.  My salary is almost back to what it was in the city (San Francisco).  I am looking at retirement in a few years.  It all seemed possible in January.  Now things are looking bad.

My 401K has taken a big hit.  Real estate is stable but stagnant for now.  Our plans to move to Palm Springs are delayed at best or cancelled all together if things don’t change soon.  I know I am not alone in my tale of woe, but that doesn’t seem to be comforting.

If I were a religious man like my father I would ask god what I did that was so terrible you have stuck me down again.  Actually my dad would not ask that question.  He had faith and believed everything would be alright.  I know that is true too.  We deal with what life presents us in whatever way we can. “I will survive”, as Gloria Gaynor once sang in that anthem of hope for our community.

Gloria Gaynor


Posted in health with tags on March 18, 2020 by jefferyrn

We are being asked to comply with social distancing rules.  Restaurants have closed.  Casinos have closed.  All “non-essential” business have closed.  Events have been cancelled.  Travel plans have been cancelled. People are hoarding toilet paper, water, paper towels, hand sanitizers, liquid soap, frozen vegetables, rice, flour, sugar.  It is a different world out there.

I work at a hospital, so I am still going to work each day (for now).  There are some plans to start working from home, but guess what?  My supervisors are all on vacation.  There is no one here to make that decision for me.  So I will continue to come in this week.  Next week two of my bosses return and we shall see what the future hold.

I don’t really mind coming to work.  Our clinic within the hospital is still treating patients.  Doctors are still asking me questions.  Users are still complaining about how the systems are working.  It is pretty normal here.  What I don’t like is I am stuck eating here now.

My husband used to pick me up every day for lunch.  But now that the restaurants are closed there is no point.  Plus he is in that risk group of the elderly, he is 70.   I am just outside the risk group at 59.  But still I worry for both of us.  We are diabetics.  That makes us what they call people “with underlying conditions.”

As we wait this pandemic out, I am stressed.  I am afraid.  I am sad.

Greta Garbo

I can’t help but remember that famous line, “I want to be alone.”  Did Greta Garbo know what she was asking for? I know I don’t like it.  Not one bit.

There is one sort of bright side in all of this.  I don’t have to feel guilty about not going to the gym.  It’s closed.

Boredom challenges diet

Posted in health, weight loss with tags , on January 23, 2020 by jefferyrn

When I am bored I start doing tasks that are necessary but always seem to take a back burner.  This week I have been updating documentation.  These are procedure documents that we provide to the helpdesk knowledge base.   When we upgrade to a new version of an application or move to a new server, for example, these documents need to update as well.

Now he’s not that boring.

It is time consuming but it does make the day go by faster.   I run through the procedures and update the screenshots and notes.  Put it in the proper template for submission.  Put in the appropriate cross references to other articles. Open an incident and submit them to be put into our knowledge base.  Fun stuff.

It also keeps me from looking around for a snack or walking to Starbucks.  Documentation is diet friendly.  I have also started religiously documenting what I eat again in a journal on my phone. When you have to admit that what you have done you pause before doing it again.  Those two Hershey’s kisses I grabbed off the bosses desk, were they really worth 44 calories.  Probably not.  But it did stop me from finishing off the bowl that afternoon.  When we pause and think about what we are doing we can make the right choices.

So distracting.

Just now I went to help up front at the check-in desk.  They have the best candy.  I grabbed 2 bit0honey’s and now I am thinking why did I do that?  They were 48 calories.  I think I liked the kisses better and it was 4 calories less.  But that is beside the point.  The point is I made myself record that in my phone for today.  Documentation and taking responsibility for ones actions are key to losing weight. It is so easy to say, “But I like it”.  Or “I am hungry”. But are you truly hungry?  Or are you just bored and looking for a distraction.

Working it

Posted in health, weight loss with tags , on January 21, 2020 by jefferyrn

Does it ever seem like the universe is working against you?  Last night we decided to go to the gym.  Low and behold our location had closed.  The lease was up and the landlord refused to renew it.  Now I supposed we would have known that had we been going to the gym regularly, but we didn’t go the whole month of December and it closed December 29th.

So now we have to go to another location across town and cancel our membership.  It’s hard enough to go to a gym next to my house let alone across town.  We found a new gym that my husband’s insurance covers for free.   So that’s a positive thing, except my membership will be 20 dollars a month.  So we are right back to where we started at Fitness for 10.  Can’t win for losing.

I am sure it’s not this nice. But as long as I’m dreaming.

One could argue that is a small price to pay for the improvement of one’s health.  On the upside too, this new gym has an indoor swimming pool, which is truly my favorite form of exercise. We are going to check it out today or tomorrow. Did I ever tell you exercise is a dirty word around our house?  So is gym, walking, running, hiking, stairs, and any sort of extraneous movement that can be avoided.  So talk dirty to me baby.  I am ready to get back in shape.

The tongue is not that tasty after all

Posted in health, weight loss with tags , on January 10, 2020 by jefferyrn

I just read an article that says a fat tongue can contribute to sleep apnea.  It’s an interesting idea.  The study showed that if you reduced your weight by 10%, an MRI shows that the fat in your tongue is also reduced significantly and can reduce snoring as well as other symptoms of sleep apnea.

It seems to me that an obese person might have a “thinner” tongue given the fact that it is getting much more use.  But that is just not the case.  They aren’t certain why the tongue has any fat at all. It should be just muscle, but it is marbled with fat.  No wonder the cat wants it.

I would also speculate that people who talk incessantly would also have muscular tongues.  I wonder if lying has any effect. Certainly then politicians would not suffer from apnea, nor in-laws. But this does not prove to be the case.  Fat body equals fat tongue.  It’s that simple.

So all of my health problems are related to my obesity.  We really are what we eat, so to speak, (fat) tongue in cheek.

Failure or a new chance?

Posted in food, health, weight loss with tags , , on January 8, 2020 by jefferyrn

I don’t think a half pound peanut butter cup in on my diet.  But I ate it anyway.  I was careful about it.  I cut it into eight pieces.  The first day I ate one. The second I ate the rest of them.  I am like the owl in the tootsie pop commercial.  Except I beat him by one. On the bright side I have rid myself of all the bad food in my desk.  It was delicious.

Tomorrow we get back to basics.  I am cutting sugar, walking more, and the ultimate dirty words, going to the gym.  Yikes.

There is always a reason not to go to the gym.  I don’t feel well, my partner doesn’t feel well, I worked too late to go now, etc.

There is always an excuse to eat sugar.  Because it is there! I am depressed and it will make me feel better.  (The crash from the sugar high makes me feel worse, not to mention the bathroom scales.)

We who suffer from obesity face these obstacles everyday of our lives.  We can choose to be defeated by them or we can achieve our goals.  Food is not happiness.   The gym never killed anyone (I don’t think?).  Walking is a better alternative to needing a wheel chair because we are so damned obese that we can’t.

We know what to do.  And sadly I have failed to do it lately.

We all fall down

Posted in family, health with tags , , on January 7, 2020 by jefferyrn

Smart home gadgets are all the rage.  I am little late to the party, but Alexa has finally joined our house hold.  I have an Echo Show and some smart outlets.  You can rename Alexa but there are only a few choices.  We call her Echo. So now I can turn lights on and off with a voice command or on my phone app or I can put them on a schedule.  I can call my mother through the Echo Show and we can see each other.  I bought her and Echo Spot, a smaller version of the Show.  But mom doesn’t like to use it.  She is 83.  

I got it for her because she lives alone now.  I thought she would like asking it questions, she doesn’t.  But more importantly I wanted it to be able to call 911 in an emergency. In theory this was a good idea.  If she falls, Echo can call the paramedics.

Well, we put it to the test right before Christmas.  Mom fell and broke her pelvis.  But guess what?  She wasn’t home, so Echo couldn’t hear her cry for help.  Luckily, the store manager came out to the parking lot.  She had tripped over one of those cement parking bars that are supposed to prevent you from pulling up too far.  Small town have their advantages.  People came to her rescue.  Someone gave her a pillow, someone called 911, the manager took her groceries back into the store and held them for her in the frig or freezer, whatever was required.  And they didn’t have her car towed. Amazing!

She had to stay in a nursing home until last Saturday.  Now my nephew’s girl friend is staying with her until she can fend for herself again.  People not gadgets come to the rescue.  I am afraid though when I am that age I may need gadgets or robots or something to save me.  Or maybe my great-grandson?