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Weighing in…diet or lifestyle change?

Posted in food, health, random, weight loss on December 1, 2016 by jefferyrn

Last time I talked about what my motivation is to lose weight.  Now let’s see if we can figure out the how part.  The standard answer here is move more eat less, diet and exercise.  These words evoke years of pain and suffering and with very little success.  People say it’s not a diet it’s a lifestyle change.  Bull shit.  When I married Ricky that was a lifestyle change.   If I don’t eat sweets, fried foods, or starches of any type (bread, pasta, potatoes, and rice) that is cruel and inhumane punishment, not a lifestyle change.  If I go to the gym every evening after work and ride the elliptical or the bike or the treadmill, instead of going home to eat dinner that is more punishment.


But Jeff, you say, think of your goals.  Double bull shit.


So what am I going to do?  I have been logging everything I eat in my new Fitbit app.  I wear this damn bracelet that reminds me of prison, even though I have never been there, everywhere but in the shower.  It is telling me things I already know.   You ate too much, you aren’t moving enough, you aren’t getting enough sleep (because I am dreaming about food!).  So this Martha Stewart anklet that I wear on my wrist reports all this data to my phone.  I can graph it out.  Whoopee!  I can see failure in a pie chart or a bar graph, wonderful.  I know I can’t stop thing about that pie either.


I have the tools…or at least the ones there are available to me.  My company bought me the Fitbit as part of our Healthy Tracks program.  Here is the problem.  I like to eat.  I like to sit and do nothing. I hate to drink water. I love sweets. I love bread.   The answer to this problem is moderation.  Triple bullshit.  If I open a bag of chips, I am going to eat a bag of chips.   If I have one pieces of pizza, I won’t stop till the pie is gone.  There’s that word again, pie.


We got a dog.  I hate walking that damn thing.  It’s cold out there and he wants to lift his leg on every tree and sniff out the perfect place to poop.  Please just go, so I can get back in side and sit and do nothing, like the cat.


Then there is the limited result of my attempt to comply with these rules.  The first week I can shed 5 pounds.  Then ……….nothing more.  It is very discouraging.   When I was younger I could lose weight much more easily.  My metabolism has slowed down.  You have read my previous posts about diet pills and magic elixirs.  None of that works.  The diet pills were like being on Meth.  Not that I have ever done drugs but I know I didn’t feel normal.


I am on that plateau now.  Waiting for the scales to turn in my favor.  If my will power can just hold out for a few more days.  I will get past this lull.  It is a diet.  It is exercise for no reason.  It will work eventually.

New position

Posted in family, random, weight loss, Work on November 21, 2016 by jefferyrn

It is the Monday before Thanksgiving, and I am sitting at my new desk.  It feels different.  I have a new role.  I am the EMR administrator for the Cancer Center.   It was a promotion of sorts.  I was already support the system but I asked for a raise to become the full time administrator and they gave it to me.   This is the first time I every pushed for something and got it.  Of course, the director wanted me in this position so I didn’t have to push too hard.

I am thankful for my new position.  It comes with a lot of responsibilities and new things to learn.  I have training December.   Three days in Las Vegas.  Rick is going with me but I will be in class while he is out and about.

The Vice President just walked by and welcomed me to the family!  She is nice on the surface but I know I need to watch my back.  Look at me already thinking negative thoughts.

At least for the next 3 days I can get my feet wet while most people are dreaming of turkey and pumpkin pie.

I have an appointment tomorrow to meet the surgeon about my hernia.  I will probably post pone the operation until after the first of the year. I am not looking forward to it.  I am supposed to lose some weight before the operation.  I have already lost 10 lbs. unfortunately it is the same 10 lbs. that I lose and gain over and over and over again.

Happy Thanksgiving!


Posted in election, human rights, random on November 11, 2016 by jefferyrn

I am reading social media and there is endless bickering back and forth about the election. The prevailing question from Democrats is why did this happen? On the Republican side the question is why can’t  you accept that we won.  The reality is there are no winners here. We have lost ourselves in an ugly campaign that has left a bad taste in our mouths.

I seriously don’t believe  that anything was proved by electing Donald Trump other than that fear is a motivation and hate can be as strong as love.

I can not say with certainty that Hilary would have United this country. But I didn’t feel the hate.

People are asking us to move on and accept. I can not accept a man whose heart is filled with greed. And I refuse to accept racial inequality, sexual inequality, or any other forms of inequality .  

To that end, I understand what people thought they were accomplishing.  An outsider could fix things. A statement was made but at what cost.

I am a very accepting person. I have believed in others who have let me down both personally and professionally.

I accept  the new president . But not without an abundance  of caution. And a little fear.

Waist not want not

Posted in food, health, random, weight loss on November 8, 2016 by jefferyrn

I met with the surgeon last week.  You’ll never guess what she asked me to do before the surgery.  That’s right, lose weight.  It seems the outcome will be much better if I am much smaller.  We are waiting 6 weeks to see what I can do about this problem.    Seriously, six weeks!  I have been trying to lose weight  most of my adult life.  I am not sure what 6 weeks will do.  But I am sufficiently scared so who knows.

The first scare was that I had an irregular heartbeat, so she ordered an urgent EKG.  The next day the results were normal.  Nothing to worry about.  Easy for her PA to say, I was worried for a day and a half.  It was a struggle not to look at my own medical record, but I resisted and called the doctor for the results instead.  I need my job.

The same cannot be said for my addiction to food.  My partner, does all the cooking.  Lucky me.  But I do the clean-up.   All my life it has been pounded into me not to waste food.  Waste not want not…..   Well, that has turned into something ugly.  You have always heard that cooks sample the food while they are making it and that is why they are often overweight.   Well we don’t keep left overs, so when I am clean out the pots and pans I find myself eating some of the would be leftovers before putting them down the sink.   Translation, last night I ate a lot of cheese tortellini with a big serving spoon hovered over the kitchen sink.  Hence the title of this post Waist not….

I seriously need to get this under control or have someone dump the food for me before I do the rest of the clean up.

Strange obsessions and other nonsense 

Posted in random on November 7, 2016 by jefferyrn

Sharing hands making all sorts of plans…

It’s election  is tomorrow. Finally Hilary will be crowned queen er ah madame president. Or there is a slight chance the world will end. The obsession for news about the Donald will hopefully be over  and the country can get back to business as usual. Change is good but too much change is bad. It’s not just going out of your comfort zone. It’s  headed  in the opposite direction.

AND I have a new odd obsession for a guy I follow on Facebook. I could never connect with him directly but I am fascinated with his little videos and comments about the election and the world in general.

He is an Internet comedian. He is gay and you probably know him as the guy who asked us to leave Brittany alone.

I know it’s crazy. But maybe I like the way he reaches out and pretends not to care what others think and at the same time he appears so vulnerable. He is brave and I admire him.

ALSO I am hook on a new show called This is us. The best writing I have seen in years. 

If Hilary loses tomorrow, I  still have Chris Crocker and TV to keep the reality star at bay.

Grandparent angst 

Posted in family, random on November 2, 2016 by jefferyrn

Our 20 year old granddaughter has moved in with us while she goes to college. Not having children of my own this situation has proved to be quite challenging. There are rules that I have quickly been indoctrinated to….. I mistakenly thought my house my rules. Not so simple.

It seems young adults have space that should not be invaded without prior permission. That’s the first mistake I made. I went in her room and tidied things up while she was at school. You would have thought I murdered her best friend.

We had a little talk. I apologized for thinking it was okay to fold laundry vacuum and make her bed. I told her I would never do it again. But if I ask her to straighten up she damn we’ll better do it. We have an agreement. The first of many, I suspect.

I have yet to clean her bathroom.  (to be continued)

What’s up doc

Posted in random on November 1, 2016 by jefferyrn

I went to see my primary care doctor today. seems I am being referred to a surgeon. I am not happy about this at all.

15 years ago I had a hernia repair. It has torn open and is the source of great pain. My choices are to have it fixed or risk strangulation, whigh partially occurred last week.

Thursday is my appointment. I am not a happy camper.